My toes are somewhat a little numb, i have tried to adjust shoes, a little massage but tonight they are still feeling the same. This is new, not happened during my chemo. I hope i could find solution to this problem.

Despite my feet problem i was able to drive and do errands today. I try hard to walk hoping my feet soreness will slowly adjust itself.

Hoping to soon see my happy feet!

I was not able to drive this morning to take my five year old son to school. For two days i was able to drive to take my 15 year old son to school to take his exams for credits on his on line studies. If he passes he will be able to go to grade 11.

Today, my legs feel weak. My toes are somehow feeling numb and my feet are aching. Maybe i have over used them last Sunday, that they are telling me they need to rest or maybe i need foot massage.

I hope i would be able to recover strength of my legs soonest. I have to go back to my normal routines!

Today, after going to Hongkong yesterday, my feet are sore and my back is painful. I guess i have overstretched my weak muscles. Maybe i still need to slowly break in first or train my muscles to exercise again. After almost seven months of being sedentary, i need to start moving around.

I should help myself not to be over excited. I may feel stronger already but deep inside, i still need to be very careful not to harm my body. I need to control my mind not to be overconfident.

I still need to be always careful. Lately i have friends suffering badly from recurrence of their cancer. It's terrible just thinking about how they suffered again. I should not get depressed but its telling me how bad it can get if i am not careful all the time.

Wow, can i do it? Will i be able to fight all the time? Will i be strong enough to win my battle? So many doubts, uncertainties and questions.

I will need the help of my family, friends and most especially my God!!!

It's Friday and the temperature is just cool 17 to 20 degrees centigrade. I have been able to bring to school and fetch my son in all the five days of this week. I am starting to regain my strength! I do not have colds anymore and i am over the critical 3 weeks after my last chemo! Yehey! I think i am on my way to recovery!

These past weekdays, i have been able to drive by myself and I (my mind and body) am doing well. Not much body pains anymore. I am now very excited to see my hair back! Sometimes i tend to stare but my daughter told me not to. The more i look at it, the slower it will grow back. Well, i couldn't help my excitement. I really missed my eyebrow, eyelashes and hair! I will have extensions as soon as it is possible!

Today i have running nose and i keep on sneezing a lot. Macau temperature is between 14 to 17 degrees centigrade only so it is not that cold. I also have some back pains every now and then.

I still look forward to better days ahead and i hope my body immune system stays up all the time. All i have to do is try to protect myself and drink all my vitamins and supplements.

My mouthsore is getting better, my hair should be growing back soon and my nails should grow back to normal colors.
I should regain My strength!!!

Today, my 2nd daughter, my husband and I had lunch together. It was a nice bonding time sharing good food.

Then we fetched my five year old from school. My 2nd daughter was able to get driving permit so she drove for me.

She had been staying over to help me out but she had to fly back to Philippines tonite. I miss my three girls but they need to be in PI.

My eldest will be taking the real estate brokers exam in March, my 2nd will be taking NMAT this april and my 3rd still in college.

I am feeling better now with just few mouth sores. I need to get back my strength so i could start my radiation therapy this February. My WBC shouldn't go much too low anymore. I will be strong!!!

After a hectic day yesterday, i was not able to wake up to take my son to school. I just didn't have enough energy to pull him out of bed, give him a bath and drive him to school. He has been sick with colds and was given medications for three days. He seemed ready to go back but waking him up was a real challenge and i didn't have the energy. Anyway, i decided for both of us to just rest today.

We had extended sleep up to 9am. I just feel weak and just little tingling pains on my arms and legs. I do hope these will be my last episodes. I had fallen to naps twice, in the morning and afternoon. My body was not willing to go out do anything.

Rest was all i did today, trying very hard that little pain in my throat will go away. Drank as much water as i can. Took all my supplements. Things will be better soon...

Because i was able to rest the whole day yesterday, i had the energy the whole day today. Woke up at 8:30am then got ready to fetch my sister and family at the ferry terminal. They came from Hongkong.

We passed by our place to put their bags down then had to rush to the Macau - Zhuhai border immigration to beat the 12:30 nn lunchbreak of the tourguides. Spent four hours shopping for bargains then back to Macau at 5:30pm. Rested for one hour then had 7pm to 7:45 pm dinner at a Thai restaurant beside our condo.

Going to airport by 8pm for their 9:40pm flight to Clark. Such a hectic schedule!!

I really can't imagine after how my visitors survived this day. Hongkong then Macau then Zhuhai then Macau then Philippines!!! It was not a joke and they had such energy and patience!! Congrats. Guys!! 8 of them!!

So many thoughts on my mind now. I am happy that my chemo are all done with and i am now trying to pass away time so i could recover my strength back. It should be that simple but other emotions keep getting into me.

Uncertainty, i am not yet 100% sure that my chemo had been able to get all cancer cells in my body. I have yet to undergo another treatment scheme to try to eradicate all remaining cancer cells ( goodbye cancer cells forever please!!! )

I know i need to undergo all of these just so i could increase my chances. We are all doing everything possible and just need to hope and pray that everything works out fine.

Today, i am feeling a little sad because the possibility of recurrence is almost certain. Almost all people i know have had recurrences and that is when it gets worst.

I have to work really really hard to be able to fight off the cancer cells. Everything that i should be doing from now on, will be to fight it out.

I know i will need all prayers, all support all the love and understanding of all my family and friends and most especially God my Saviour!!!

Today i still feel somewhat weak but inspired since i will be having visitors arriving tonite! When you have been down and out for six months it does help a lot to be inspired to be up and about!

One of the realizations of being sick is visitors helps a lot to boost your moods! You learn to appreciate all the people that come to see you and hope you well. I know i have not been the most thoughtful person ever but now one of my resolutions would be to be the more caring and thoughtful person i can be.

Thank God for technology as it gives me more ways to get in touch with my loved ones! Texts, FB, viber, skype, God is truly great for giving us these numerous ways and means! Now i can always express myself to my family and friends!!!

Still feeling bloated, heartburn but eating well. Seems like the metallic taste buds are starting to act up again! Anyway just one last bout of all of these and i will be officially over it. Counting the days and excited to already start moving on. Lot's of things to look forward to. My hair should be growing back soon, missing it a lot already!

I am feeling just fine. Took meds to make me sleep last night. Eating well though feeling bloated and constipated. Tried to eat lots of fiber and fruits. Drank all my supplements.

I still could not believe i have been able to finish all my chemotherapy! I couldn't celebrate just yet as i have to still overcome the downswing this coming weeks. Have to be careful not to let my WBC go very low again. Need to protect myself from infections and colds. I can do it, God will protect me as always...

It seems like it was just yesterday that i was so anxious about starting my treatments. I was so afraid and dreaded the days ahead. Wow! Now i can't believe that i have done it. Maybe it should be we have done it! I could not have overcome all the difficulties without all the help and prayers and moral support from my family and friends.

All i need to do now is to make sure i don't get exposed to bad elements these coming three weeks when my wbc goes down and my immune system is down. That would be easier now as i know already how bad it can get if i don't do what i must. My supplements are complete. My mood is up. I am looking forward to my incoming visitors! I am happy when i have visitors showing their love and concern. One of the perks of getting sick, hehe.

God has been taking care of me. He has given me everything i needed. Good and caring doctors, supportive husband and children ( yes even my son is healed by God ), very loving friends who prays a lot for me, family who will never give up on me, all my FB friends who will always be there praying for me, i really couldn't ask for anything more.

God loves me even during times i questioned and doubted His plans for me. Even in all my imperfections, he help me by the hand throughout my chemo journey. God is truly good!

Next will be five weeks of radiation therapy! That will be easier!

I was able to drive and take my son to his first day of school for 2013, then i had my blood test. I have taken my first of six dose of dexamethasone. My 2nd daughter was with me. It pays to have many children when you get sick, they can easily take shifts.

Wow, it seems like just yesterday when i had my first chemo, now i will be having my 8th and last chemo tomorrow! Yesterday my son was already cheering when i answered him it will be my last! I really can not grasp how everything went by so fast! It is only by God's grace that i am able to endure everything. Prayers, lots of prayers helped me a lot!

Thank you all!!!

I am feeling good today, no cough, no major pains.

My husband and i were able to do some errands then went to mass with our 2nd daughter and five year old son. After the mass we went to the grocery to buy dinner. We had salad and ham. My son now tries to eat also healthy food with us too and it is such a great deal considering he used to be very very choosy.

Today we were able to have our condo blessed by a priest. He was fetched at 930 am and he did the blessing of our place with Holy Water. In his blessing, he read the Gospel for today which was Zaccheus welcoming Jesus into his home and related the blessing as also an act of welcoming Jesus into our home.

After the blessing ceremony, we shared simple breakfast meal together with our priest. It felt good to share stories while having meal together.

My five year old son enjoyed talking to our priest, telling him about his angry birds game and star wars that when it was time to leave, he cried and didn't want him to leave.

My two girls, eldest and third daughter has to fly back to manila. It was time for them to go back for school ( college for my 3rd ) and my eldest review class for real estate brokers licensure exams aside from managing our businesses.

I have been feeling well. I am on the week before my last chemo. I supposed my immune system is up since it is the third week already since my 7th chemo. I am almost done!

These four days have been fun times for our family with Miko and his parents. We had meals together in all the best restaurants and eating places in Macau. Shopping for bargains and sale had been added fun also.

Walking or eating while chatting in the cold weather was enjoyable as well! Sharing happy moments together while planning for the wedding! It was just perfect, couldn't ask for anything more!

Day before New Year, we just prepared food and stayed home since I can not join the crowd at the Fireworks area. We just had our champagne soda toast at our balcony and watched the fireworks from afar.

It was just our family but we are complete and it makes all the difference.

New year day was much more complete because my eldest daughter's fiance and parents arrived from Philippines via cebu pacific evening flight. As my daughter Judith said we have an extended family now!

I have been feeling better with my cough and colds almost gone.

(Dec. 26)
We had to leave for Hongkong and check in a hotel at Tsim tsa tsui area. We have a 9am appointment the next day at the US embassy in Hongkong for our family visa renewal and our 5 year old new visa application.

(Dec. 27)
We were able to reach the embassy on time and was able to completely submit all papers for the interview. The consul didn't ask for anything even though we brought tons of supporting papers. She just asked our five year old son who his mom and dad are, of course he pointed to us.

We were expecting and ready to stay five days in Hongkong and wait for our passports back but the consul was so kind enough and told us she will issue back our passports with visa the next day! It was sort of 'express', such a nice lady consul! After the embassy, we went to Kowloon Tong station for ice skating of our two girls and two sons at the Festival mall.

(Dec. 28)
My girls and my five year old went to Disneyland while i, my husband and my son stayed in the hotel. I somehow needed to rest. Started to drink Pei pak kao and it helped tame my cough! In the afternoon my husband went back to the US embassy to pick up our passports with US visas. My 15 year old son and i went to Uniqlo beside our hotel for his much needed garments. He has grown so fast!

(Dec. 29)
The next day we were supposed to go to ocean park but it was raining so we decided to just go instead to Festival Mall for shopping and ice skating for my sons and daughter.

(Dec. 30)
We had to check out the hotel and just left our baggage in the hotel then proceeded to ocean park. My girls and 15 yr old son went to the rides together while my husband and i went to rides with our five year old son. By 7 pm we were ready to ride bus back to admiralty station where we had dinner at the Genki Sushi at the station. After that we took the MTR back to our hotel then walked to the ferry terminal for the last trip back to Macau. US visa renewal - Mission accomplished and our family had such great bonding and happy times together!!!

Was still having bad colds the whole day but i feel that the injections somehow helped my body recover. Also i have taken my supplements.

We transfered to another unit in another block. As per the feng shui master 28 was better for us, better view, bigger rooms and toilets.

This time everything was fixed and transfered by my family. They did almost everything and they didn't let me get stressed!

My doctor gave me instructions to have daily injections to help my white blood count from going very low again for four days from December 21 to 24. The medicines were issued to me by the hospital pharmacy then i just needed to bring them to the health center with instructions by my onco for them to inject on my right arm. I just needed to walk a block from our place every morning to the center. It was such a breeze...

I was feeling my body becoming weak again, colds and sore throat already starting. The injections and my supplements and vitamins and lots of water somehow kept me afloat.

My family being complete made things easier for me to think positive. It somehow
gave me extra boost! I was able to get thru the lows again!