After having fever last night and feeling so much body aches, today i am feeling better. I decided to just take paracetamol instead of going to the hospital. Was waking up every four hours with slight fever and took paracetamol and it worked.

With all my not so good feelings lately i do learn to appreciate every good moments i have. Looking forward to more better days to come...

Had my last (25th) radiation therapy today. Was supposed to be a good milestone but had to ask my radiation oncologist about my left arm which pain had been bothering me and she told me it can be caused by bone metastasis. Had it xrayed and told me she will be getting results by friday and will be calling me by then.

Lately i had been feeling weaker and the pain sometimes shoots up that i need to drink painkillers. I had been telling myself it was just side effects but it doesn't really go away.

Last monday during my meeting with my oncologist i told him about the pain and he gave me instructions to have blood tests this friday then meet with him again on monday.

I am now trying to get info about bone metastasis and checked on the symptoms and i think i am getting all the signs.

With the on and off pains i am feeling now, i think i am being prepared to look and reconsider everything again.

My husband and I got foot and body massage. It was a much needed massage to relieve my muscles from side effects of chemo and radiation. My onco approved massage than taking meds. I hope it releases the strain in my muscles, and improve my blood circulation. My toenails seems to be nearing detachment but i still hope they can still revive. The body massage works only on the back and hands. It works well for me since i still have sore left side so full body massage with oil is not yet possible for me. I will surely have one once my radiation soreness is over and done with. Couldn't wait for that relaxing feeling!

My third daughter will be arriving tonight! It's her short school break and she will have summer classes starting april 15. Tomorrow my second daughter will be coming also. She will have break from her nmat review classes. Then my eldest on april 20.

I am looking forward to being with my daughters. I do miss them a lot especially during my treatments and downtimes. It helps me a lot just having some girls talk. Also girls bonding moments called shopping! I do love all my children very much and would want to still be here for them. Here is my prayer.,,

I woke at 1:30 am because of heart burn. At first i got nervous thinking it might be heart attack. I tried to get up to drink water. I felt a little better so i got up and got another glass of water. Tried to relax myself but when i tried to lay down on the bed it acted up again. So i got up to make hot green tea, after drinking i just sat up on the bed searched in the internet until after an hour, was able to catch my sleep again. I woke up again at 6:45am to start the day.

After taking my boys ( 3 including my husband ) to school and work, i drove back home to park the car then rode the bus to Kiang Wu. The radiation was a breeze.

I rode the bus again going home, passed the market to buy fruits. I got banana and papaya and mango to help me prevent heartburn again.

During the time i was awake, i was able to search in the internet about the side effects of my treatments. What i have been feeling was called fatigue, waking up feeling tired and muscles aching. I found out that these can go on until the hormone therapy. Lately i have been feeling little frustration because of these. I just really need to accept these things and fight it out. Acupunture and massage are acceptable remedies to help alleviate the pains. Well, i better go for it soonest!!

Today i had my 10th Radiation Therapy. Everything went well. I think i am getting the rhythm of the therapy. My left hand is still aching and i try to exercise it. Hope my muscles will recover completely from the pain soon!!

I am enjoying communicating with my children even just by imessage. They seem to be just nearby, the world is getting smaller! My sister in law just texted and they are in australia. My classmates in LA and SFO thru viber also communicated. I love receiving messages!

I woke up early for my 9 am appointment with a surgeon at San Teng Hospital. My derma referred me to this surgeon to make excision biopsy on two nodules, one on my right armpit, the other on the middle of my ribs. The surgeon will do it by local anesthesia. He scheduled it on April 15 at 2:30pm.

Then at 10:am i went to Kiang Wu Hospital for my 9th radiation therapy. I rode the bus going to and from the two Hospitals. It was good because the buses i needed to ride all have their terminals at the back of our condo.

Then after fetching my boys at school, we had to go to the Macau Science Center to shoot pictures for my older son's CTS class.

After dinner, we again drove to more places to shoot. It was fun but quite tiring. As advised by my nurse and my daughter, i did stretching of my left arm even with pains and i feel that it is getting better.

When i looked in the mirror, it is official that my eyelashes are now growing back! My eyebrows are 100% back, full grown!

Only my toenails need to recover...

Yesterday and today, i am relaxed, no radiation. My husband and i had foot massage in Taipa. Then we had early dinner at an italian restaurant.

During the massage, i felt my toes get their sense back. There was pain during the massage but i think my nerves were loosened and blood circulated again in my toes. Today, i feel my feet improved a lot. There is still joint pains but the ankle, sole and toes are much better!

My left hand still acts up with shooting pains every now and then. I did some stretching this morning and tried exercising my hands the whole day. I hope to wake up with lesser pains. I guess anticipating the pains makes my joints become stiff. Have to fight the pains away! Shoooooo!!! Go away !!!