She will be turning 22 tomorrow! A very responsible, no nonsense, very loving, sweet lady.

How time flies! I could still remember her being my baby. She had been a very good baby, so easy to take care of, never fuzzy, sleeps, drinks her milk, always contented.

Among my girls, she is the most brave and determined. Being the second of the three girls, she has for a time been challenged with middle child syndrome but her being strong and persistent, she had overcome it!

She is such a great person. She took care of me during the most challenging phase of my sickness. A very loving nurse. She would watch out for my diet. She is a disciplined vegetarian with a weakness for sweets!

I may not be a perfect mother but i am truly grateful to God for giving me all my precious gems!

Yesterday was a good day. I felt quite well without much dizziness. Took my last doze of dexamethasone last night.
The greatest thing for me yesterday was that my son agreed to meet today the TIS adviser on his home study program.

Today i woke up happy and excited to bring my son to his first step of moving on. I just hope and pray God will guide him. I hope he is emotionally stable enough to face the world again.

I guess my additional supplements are helping me a lot too. The AHCC (shiitake mushroom from Japan) seems to have lessened the side effects of Tax chemo. I see my hair is growing back!

Maybe being happy about my son is also helping my disposition and mood. During one of my prayers, i have told God that i can not get well unless my son gets well ahead of me. I guess He is telling me now things will be better.

God is truly good!!!!

Today I came in 19 mins. late for my doctors appointment so when I checked in, I was already no. 12 instead of no. 3. Everything was pushed later so my chemo was done at 2 pm already.

First, they gave me an injection, then the dextrose where they put in 3 meds then the taxotere. As in the first taxotere session, I also was feeling drowsy and dizzy during the infusion. Blood pressure was monitored on my left foot.

I was dropped off and picked up by my husband and I went through it all by myself. In the waiting area, the social worker who doesn't speak English was worried for me that all she could give me is a phone number to call should I need to talk to someone. Anyway, everything went well and was picked up at 230pm.

I was quite brave to do it by myself. All I have with me are prayers and well wishes from my family and friends.

Today, I was able to ask my onco about the next radiation therapy schedule as we were planning to go home for the Chinese New Year holidays. I found out that I still can not travel until after at the most ten weeks, at the least 8 weeks after my last chemo on January 5. It will be a five days a week treatment schedule for 5 to 7 weeks starting after 2 to 3 weeks from my last chemo.

After that radiation therapy, I will be taking 5 years of tamoxifen. Wow what an overwhelming schedule!!!

Well I would just need to take things one day at a time. Lifting up to God my whole well being.

Today i took the dexamethasone already in the morning and evening. I started to feel queasy already but very bearable.

This morning i was able to go out with my husband and son. We took my bro in law to the airport. We had breakfast at Mcdo airport after he checked in and before he went thru immigration. We had a good chat while having breakfast that he was already paged before he reached the boarding gate. Thank you for the short visit!

We had Lunch at yaohan fastfood, passed by garment shop, went to mass at Iao Hon, then had dinner at Venetian fastfood. We were able to watch the Winter in Venice free show. I am really trying to enjoy every moment before my Chemo.

When your health has been breached already, you tend to be more conscious of all that you are feeling and doing. You always have a tendency to over analyze which things are good and helps make you feel better. You learn to appreciate everything.

At the end of the day, everything will be lifted up to God Almighty. May His will be done.

I have just finished my blood test in a breeze, took me about 10 minutes to reach the hospital then 5 minutes waiting, 2 minutes blood test, done!

Today, until monday (6th chemo, 2nd Tax ), i will enjoy my feeling good state. My brother in law is arriving and we will have bonding and happy eating ( good food only! ) times together. It feels good having visitors. It gives us reason to move around, shop and eat out.

It's thanksgiving day today in America. For me everyday is thanksgiving day. Thank you Lord for giving me another day to be with family and friends.

When you are sick you learn to appreciate all people and all things around you. Life is too short to waste on whining. Of course whenever i don't feel well my spirit gets dragged down but i will just need to look forward to good days ahead.

So many things to do after my treatments, Travel, Wedding, Sell, Renovate, Build then Sell. Everything got on hold but must continue and move on to 2013 and beyond...

Today i was able to fetch my son at 3:05 pm and stayed with him while he had soccer for an hour 3:30 pm to 4:30pm after which we had the first Parent Teacher Conference scheduled at 4:45pm. Everything was just right on time. My husband was also able to join in.

His teacher explained to us the report card and how my five year old son was the most attentive among all his classmates, especially among the boys.

My son loves reading, drawing, making pretend things, numbers and learning. He always wants to understand everything. His mind is never idle, always with witty questions. He asked me " why are weekends only two days and weekdays five? ". He wants them to be the same!

His mandarin teacher last year was very fond of him. She even said, he is a genius. Even the parents of his classmates loves him.

The best comment his teacher said was that he is top of his class! That is a compliment being the only Filipino! Of course i have always been proud of my son.

He always has the penchant to being first. I am teaching him to just do his best always and that is more important than being number one.

It was his choice to study in Macau. I showed him his options and he said he liked TIS ( The International School of Macau ) because of the playground, the toilets, the rooms and most important, because he wanted to be with his dad!

He hugged and thank me again for being there with him. I told him "as long as mama is not very sick, mama will fetch him but when mama is not well, it is not safe for mama to drive". He knows and prays for me everynight that i get well soon.

God is so good to me, giving me a very handsome, loving, intelligent, responsible and caring son. My prayer is that i could be with him until he finish college.

Today i was able to drive to fetch my son from school. I was forced to drive because it is drizzling and foggy and my husband has meetings so he can not fetch my son. It is quite hard for my maid and son to ride the bus in this weather. Anyway, i was tensed but was able to do it! Actually i think it's what you call adrenalin rush. I was able to overcome the fear that i might not be alert enough to drive, or my headache might make me clumsy. I did it and it makes me feel somehow fullfilled.

I have to treasure little joys. It was funny because i had to call my husband why the car won't start! Then he asked me what i did. Wow, i forgot to press on the brakes first before pushing the start button. Silly me!